I listen to music. A lot of music. I have playlists upon playlists of songs. If I’m in the car or in the shower, music is playing.
The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus has been a favorite. Especially with their song ‘Facedown.’ I was in a really abusive relationship at one point in my life. So, that became my anthem and I stared to follow them. On a separate album, there’s this song, ‘Pleads and Postcards’, that I’ve listened to at least a dozen times since Chris passed. However, yesterday I actually listened to it. I thought I had, but the last verses yesterday peaked my interest.
But if I should fall
Then you should move on
All eyes watch out for you from up above
Now don’t take this wrong
But you should move on
All eyes watch over you from up above
From the beginning of this new relationship, Ive reached out to friends and ‘talked’ to Chris. I accepted that this was good. That this was right because it feels so natural. However, with the last week and struggling with my worth to a degree, it was nice to have this reminder in the form of lyrics I’ve heard just stating to make sense.
So a short post. I am alive. I am happy. Our anniversary is just over 2 months away. That will be the next milestone to see how it goes. Looking forward to the signs and life.
Also. Picture of diamond eyes since I haven’t in a bit 🙂